"When Jesus had said this, He was troubled in spirit, and testified and said, 'Truly, truly, I say to you that one of you shall betray Me.' Then the disciples looked upon one another, wondering of whom He spoke. But there was one of His disciples leaning upon Jesus' bosom, the one whom Jesus loved." (John 13:21-23)
"Then she ran and came to Simon Peter, and to the other disciple whom Jesus loved, and said to them, They have taken away the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid Him." (John 20:2)
"Then Peter, turning around, saw the disciple whom Jesus loved following (the one who also leaned on His breast at supper, and said, 'Lord, who is he who betrays You?' Seeing him, Peter said to Jesus, 'Lord, and what of this one?'" (John 21:20-21)
I love that the apostle John refers to himself over and over in his account of Christ as "the one whom Jesus loved." Not that Jesus loved any of the other apostles less, but John saw himself first and foremost as one who was loved greatly by his Lord. It would seem there was never a doubt in his mind of Jesus' love for him.
John was confident of Jesus' love at the last Passover meal when Jesus announced that one of them would betray Him.
He was confident of His love in the dark hours of confusion that followed Jesus' crucifixion and death.
He was confident of the love that Christ had for him even when a brother tried to point a critical finger at him.
In all circumstances he knew he was loved by the only One Who really mattered.
I hope you know, too, that you are the one whom Jesus loves. No matter what hardship you face now or in the future, no matter what you've tackled in the past, you are loved by the Lord. There is no one He loves more than you. If you had been the only inhabitant of earth, He would have come and died for your sins just the same.
If you are a disciple of Christ, I hope you'll walk in faith and pure confidence at all times that you are the one whom Jesus loves.